Boys Can Have Buns, Too

okay so here's the thing; when we're home, Oliver's hair is usually up. why? well, it all started when he got his first cold a couple weeks ago. the snot overflowith and was making his hair über crusty. not a good look. so in walked what I deemed "the booger pony". what's the booger pony, you may be asking yourself? well, it looks something like this

(and if I'm being honest, it started back with teething boogers, actually)

it really helped! not with just the boogs, but for sweaty playing! see, we're right at the awkward stage where his bangs are about to fit behind his ears but it's crazy annoying in the process. so we noticed once the cold stopped, the hair was still being put up. why? because every time Oliver wakes up for the day or from nap, he asks me to. he points to the hair tie on my wrist, turns around, backs up in-between my knees and waits for me to put his hair up.

I clearly think it's the cutest thing ever. but I really wish that it was more socially acceptable for him to look like this in public. I know I shouldn't care, but get real; homeboy will for sure, without a doubt, be called a girl. I mean, he gets called a girl at least once every time we go out. even when he's in the ergo and you can't see his hair. even when he's head to toe in blue. doesn't matter. so sending him out with a topknot? I get it. but it still sucks. I like to call it "The Soccer Player Bun". yeah, whatever.

I just wish it didn't matter. I wish I didn't feel the judgment already before even publishing this post. that's what happens, the over analyzing. but I think he looks cute. and he's happy. and he's a boy that loves dinosaurs and puzzles and books and trucks. what his hair looks like doesn't determine who he is. other than awesome, because clearly, I mean... come on.

and I've thought about cutting his hair. but the baby curls? I can't. I envision putting his hair in a low pony and chopping it off at the nape of the neck. my heart sinks into my butt. my body gets that cold rush followed by hot. and you know what? it's my decision. why should I have to cut his hair? because I'm "supposed" to. says who?